[ he's not surprised to hear diluc saying these things, in this moment, when they're joined and still coming down from their high, when they've in no uncertain terms declared their loyalty to one another fully and completely. mates are together for life. this moment is meaningful, deeply intimate, if there was ever a time for these things to be said, it's now. still, that doesn't mean that kaeya likes to hear it. or that he believes it.
he believes that diluc believes it, at the very least, but as for himself..
kaeya still doesn't know what he would do, if khaenri'ah were to come calling, if his father arrived, looking to collect. for all he hates his homeland and what it's put him through, his loyalty is still divided. though now.. now, perhaps, it is less so. kaeya doesn't need to choose between two nations, when his loyalty is instead to one single person. ]
You're too good to me.
[ and he leaves it at that, his hand still smoothing over diluc's belly, imagining how it would feel, warm and swollen with pups. perhaps it wouldn't be so bad, being a father, however much the idea terrifies him, but kaeya knows one thing full well: if they have children, they will absolutely never, ever be abandoned, made to feel unwanted, or unloved. kaeya sighs into diluc's hair. ]
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he believes that diluc believes it, at the very least, but as for himself..
kaeya still doesn't know what he would do, if khaenri'ah were to come calling, if his father arrived, looking to collect. for all he hates his homeland and what it's put him through, his loyalty is still divided. though now.. now, perhaps, it is less so. kaeya doesn't need to choose between two nations, when his loyalty is instead to one single person. ]
You're too good to me.
[ and he leaves it at that, his hand still smoothing over diluc's belly, imagining how it would feel, warm and swollen with pups. perhaps it wouldn't be so bad, being a father, however much the idea terrifies him, but kaeya knows one thing full well: if they have children, they will absolutely never, ever be abandoned, made to feel unwanted, or unloved. kaeya sighs into diluc's hair. ]
How are you feeling?